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i really try my best to be positive. but my energy is daring faster than I can recharge. just read my post below, I was excited, positive about this job. but what now? I really don't know. it's not exactly helping when im tired, sick, feverish, piled with work, stuck with issues that are beyond me. I can change processes if it merely affects me. but sometimes it's the mental burden of how the words I say, the things I do directly affect my colleagues.

maybe I bother too much. so what if I'm piled with work? so what if I'm gonna get scolded? why should I care? I did my best anyway. but best just doesn't seem to suffice.

I need to continue to be positive. I want to like working so I will be happy. more and more leave, and I really start to doubt. maybe we just haven't found the value within.

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