im suffering from moodswings recently :( sadsad. i need retail therapy. but im just too broke.

suddenly im like in love with satin. anything satin attracts me nowadays. haha. must be nice la obviously.

hee. but yest when i went gaigai with darling, my heels base detached so i had an excuse to buy shoes! :) the pair i bought was similar to this pair of sandals. it had a hot pink satin flower and a black base. can u believe the price of this pair in the picture is $550?? -.-



















ohh and and and! im in love with charm bracelets too! :) can anyone tell me where i can buy the charms only at a reasonable price? in isetan it was like selling for $6 per charm. so expensive! i wanna make my own bracelets! i bought this charmed bracelet online but i dun like the green chicken pox giraffe! haha. looks so off. so i wanna find charms to replace it too!















i think im starting to look more and more tired each day. i dont know if its bcos of my lousy mood or my lack of rest. i should sleep earlier. boyboy. stop influencing me to sleep so super late already laaa. i will grow old lohhh. or else u sponsor my bird's nest and facial laa.. ok? deal! :) kidding la. haha.

aye. i needa go and do my work. so much things to do. so little time left. 17 days to exams. OMG!

living in wonderland` 20:36

my and my cheerleader boyfriend.
























thanks for accompanying me auntie! :D

actually im supposed to be. but actually, i am not. its just different. i never ever had so much courage to say so clearly how i felt about us before. maybe because i just felt so hopeless. frankly, nothing changed just because u hugged me tightly as i cried. nothing changed even though i stopped crying. because sometimes you just have to hide the sadness inside. things seem better because its just supposed to be that way. but i know its actually not. for both you and me. i still feel the way i feel. and you are severely suffering from post-cheer nostalgia. somethings, you dont have to tell me, i just know. and it makes me sad. but so what.

living in wonderland` 01:37

today im off duty :) everything for myself.

not for anyone.

i shall smile when i want to. and cry when i feel like it. today, i had alot of time to do nothing but reflect on my life. it occurred to me that i need to do something rash. something different. everything for myself. i dont wanna be considerate anymore.

living in wonderland` 01:32

im feeling super down today. and i slipped and fell, knocking my chin on the table and banging my toes on the wall. eeeeee. i tink i sprained my toes laaa. so dumb :(

ROARRRR!

yest i went out shopping w lh. theres this cheater bug shop. i bought a dress from there b4 at 59.90 loh. yest when i walked past, the things were selling at 1 for $12, 2 for $20. i almost FAINTED. so i bought many many things there to average out my loss from the initial dress i bought :P good excuse to shop rite! ohh! and i bought a bikini too! hahaha. i think im crazy. cos it was quite ex. haha. but i couldnt resist it la. so i bought it just in case! :P

tml going to support bong bong at his cheerobics. jiayou ok baby. cos no matter what, my ah bong is the best :D

wishing ong bong bong all the luck in the universe! :) muacks*

living in wonderland` 02:02

sometime ago someone asked me to help with something. and since im so seemingly free, i agreed. i know that when i help others, i should not expect anything in return. but it turns out that person starts claiming its all done personally and uses it to 讨好别人 by offering to share everything. ohh. what a 大方 and 慷慨 person we have here.

its not that im being selfish. its about respecting the person who helped to do it and the thing itself. i thought you needed help. if i knew it was to serve a superficial and ego-boosting purpose, wld i have helped? i doubt so. i rather spend my time doing nth than help.

i dont particularly enjoy this feeling. if you dont intend to show some basic respect towards what someone else helped you with, then ure a disappointment. treat it like i did community service or something.

living in wonderland` 16:16

:) i loved marley and me. heehee. cried uncontrollably :) its so sweet :) everyone should go watch it! bong. lets have a puppy next time :)

i think im having a good luck streak recently :P went for hall anniversary and i won the 9th out of 10th prize. LAPTOP COOLER. haha. and so superrr malu. hahaha. den during some weird morning lecture, the lecturer just gave afew "brain teasers" for fun and asked us to sms him when we tot of the ans. the fastest wins. and YEAH. just for fun, i sms-ed and i won. LOL. erm. but the prize was so attractive. a meal in can b. haha.

andddd... i dont know if anyone remembers the snack called HIRO CHOC CAKE. some snack that i ate everyday during recess in primary school. but the snacks stall just suddenly stopped selling it! :(

BUT :) i found it! heehee. the snacks stall outside my house just brought their first batch of stocks in today! and i bought 10 packets in case it gets sold out! hahaha :) see. guen is a huge eater. hahaha :P

living in wonderland` 23:31

i hate it when im not told the full picture of things. i dont know what to think sometimes when i know certain things, yet i cant say it. and then it just accumulates.

and the most disturbing thing is somehow i feel that somethings are just not what you say they are.

living in wonderland` 20:53