this is a crap post so dont read unless you're dam free.

suddenly feeling nostalgic. a very 心酸 feeling. so many things have changed. at every point of our lives, theres sth different to look back on. and surprisingly, uni life which i tot was my most "fun and exciting" period was not as fulfilling as i tot. i love my jc and sec sch days. maybe when some things have a wrong head start, its just difficult to put things right again.

recently, i have been thinking alot. i dont know why. everytime i have some free time for myself, my mind starts to wander off, thinking about everything and anything. and sometimes when i forget pull myself back, i get so lost in my thoughts. but they dont get me anywhere. following the train of thoughts just leaves me hanging in mid air, not knowing what to do next.

i cant shake off my nightmares. its just there. every single night. go awayyy. i hate you. mom says im too stressed. hahahaha. maybe i am too stressed because i haven gotten anything done for the past half a semester.

sometimes i wish i have enough courage to spend one day out all by myself. not having to be accountable to anyone else. just myself :) but i wont be brave enough to do so. cos when the loneliness creeps in slowly, i dont think i can take it just staying alone.

there are certain things we know but dont really like, so we tend to block them outside our mind. but thats being ostrich-y rite? :) bury ur head in the sand when there are problems around. but i still do that all the time. but i suddenly realised that having to accustom urself to accepting the fact again and again becomes much more difficult as compared to acknowledging it once and for all and leaving it aside.

everyone who drives should drive carefully ok! serious :) take care!! hmm reckless driving scares me quite a bit. esp for those young people who just passed their tp and think that slip of license means everything. if you're zai good for you, if you're not dont speed or anything ok. cos its really v dangerous if you cant drive/estimate/control well.

just feel like saying some things totally irrelevant of each other. in a weird mood today. but anw, i should start studying for my quiz on tues! :)

living in wonderland` 00:50

im really very frustrated with the mess i just created. i seriously dont know what to do.

but all thanks to my ultimately sweet bong who came all the way from school just to buy me supper :) i was so relieved to see you :) a billion bong-hugs a day keeps bang's troubles away :)


















some silly pictures of the bang and bong :)

living in wonderland` 00:40

staying happy all the time is just fake and superficial. teach me to do it sincerely.

whats the big freaking deal about doing my own things on my own.

i just imagined you would have cared more than that. but still, why should i expect that when it is my own problem and not yours?

the most ironic thing is that everytime i hope you accompany me and it turns out to be like shit. it just makes me realise that i dont need you to be with me anyway. i can do it on my own.

i am not handicapped. i can do things myself. and i will do it on my own. i will never hope i can rely on you again.

living in wonderland` 15:56

my poor darling niece is down with lung infection and she is still in the hospital, not discharged yet. sighh. so 可怜 all the injections and drips. think she's actually quite brave :) hope she gets well soon!


feeling very frustrated with myself. i unintentionally said sth that i din really think thru properly. it was reli insignificant so im sure no damage was done. but still, i cant help feeling so guilty for the freaking brainless comment i made. i cant stop questioning myself over and over again. its literally the feeling of crying over split milk. and no matter what, i just cant get it out of my head.

i need something more interesting in my life. im so sick of it being so boring. zzzzzzzz.i need more sparks. i need more excitement.

living in wonderland` 02:55

i had a great day. serious. sorry for the stupid things i did :( i still had a great day.

thanks bong bong for everything :)

living in wonderland` 01:41

stupid bang bang made a super cute, thoughtful, sweet baby upset. sorry bongbong. dont upset with stupid bang bang ok?

happy valentines' day to my one and only mister BOISTER :)

i love you bong :)

living in wonderland` 17:36

yayy. today went to ms goh's house bai nian :) actually i realised its been so long since i saw elizabeth! hee but i was late so kenna niamed. hahaha :) sorry!

:) our only group photo!




















then i went to meet bongbong for dinner at citylink's newyork newyork :) something interesting happened.

bong ordered the ribs he was craving for. but when it came, it was overcooked, hard and extremely dry. it was really bad so we informed the manager. with,out another word he whisked the plate to the kitchen and returned explaining that the ribs texture was actually reasonable, but it was a lack of marination and sauce. he also served us a complimentary wedges in case we grew hungry while waiting, repeatedly apologizing for the rib's quality. when he returned with a new serving (which was really much much nicer), he waited behind while we tried the ribs to ensure we were satisfied.

impressive!

the manager was awesome. i've never encountered such excellent service. someone who really puts his heart into providing service. its not the act of replacing the dish or providing complimentary items. it was his sincerity in trying to remedy the situation that touched me. how often do we see someone who serves with such passion in today's society?

when we learn marketing, we talk about branding, and how we can differentiate ourselves by giving our customers a whole new experience.

it was really a memorable dining experience today :)

bongbong & bangbang

living in wonderland` 03:22

its been quite a long time since i had such fun chatting with these girls. just a very simple day but it was great :) we were talking about almost every random thing, making ourselves like uber comfy on et's bed. hahaha :) and we talked about first impressions. sth we never shared with each other b4!

i wanna cherish this group of friends forever :) lets keep having outings till like we become OLD. we need to meet up more b4 pok, et, me and vilia goes into audit. den we'd probably like be uber busy :(

:P i'll upload more photos when i go back to hall! :)

living in wonderland` 01:37