i dun really know what to say but im feeling dam sad. =( the poor poor poor thing.

it was so amazing that i found a kitten cute =(

but laughing and smiling is the best way to camouflage fear and sadness.

living in wonderland` 03:21

sth is dam dam dam wrong. =( shit.

living in wonderland` 01:46

=) last wkn went to et's bday chalet. stayed over on friday den went to kbox the nxt morning *thx to et for the treat =PpP* then was the party in the evening! =) post some pics frm pui! et.. send me photos aso leii.. =)








































with daisy and vil b4 they left!




















with the bday girl, eeyore and piglet!




















us with jiaming! =)




















random pics!


























sunday was mama's 50th bday! =) this yr didnt reli have time to celebrate b4 hand so ended up just cooking food to bring to ahma's house for tea. haha. yummy! den when we got home, mama cute her super pretty looking bday cake!

=) happy bday mamama!




















































=) us in super cute strawberry visors! my boyboy super cute la. like so gay lidat =PpP

living in wonderland` 18:41

really feel like screaming at some pp. dam pissed.

i realised i have nothing to wear for dnd! crap. haha. im starting to get worried! =( and i have no time to go n buy at all =(((

living in wonderland` 23:35

i just wanna hug you. for a little while longer.

my silly boyboy haven even reli recover den nw got a super bad orh ba kat on his eye + cut at the edge of his mouth + sprained ankle. =( stop bullying my darling =( evil people go away!


=( its slightly over 1 wk to dnd. im feeling quite unprepared to be honest. so many loose ends to be settled. so many things that have to be done. im feeling quite overwhelmed. i dont wanna miss out any single thing or leave anything unsettled. hope everything will turn out ok. =) actually it has still been fun and i guess it will reli be quite fun on dnd itself.

havent been down for every single training but somehow i reli feel very happy when i see how the contestants are improving so much! =) and i love their dance. its so so so so so unfair. why did we have such an ugly and idiotic dance for our yr? =( so jealous =P

but anwww =) all the best to all of them la! all looking good =) haha. visit the dnd blog @ http://hall8dnd0708.blogspot.com.
i may sound ridiculous and totally nonsensical, but what if one day someone comes along and takes you away? =( to be perfectly honest, im almost alwx feeling so insecure and uneasy. i shd noe u better than to be affected by such things. but i just cant help it.

living in wonderland` 18:46

i feel like screaming.

i have so many freaking things to do. and im freaking tired. its not helping that my room is in a freaking big mess. im dam tired and irritated. go away.

when i dont reply you, you get worried. den didnt it occur to you that i will get worried too? maybe you prefer me not to bother. i feel dam freaking stupid. i spend e entire day feeling so unsettled and worried. i aso duno for wad. i already expected your phone flat. i dun even know why the hell i was so worried for. so freaking dumb. its not ur fault that ur phone went flat. i know. but i didnt choose to be so affected either. i wish i could assume ure alrite and stop worrying. i hate this feeling, and i dont wanna worry like an idiot for nothing anymore.

living in wonderland` 00:20

=) met pui in town today! wanted to shun bian watch dada's comp! bt we were late, so could oni help by voting! so super thick skin la. we keep asking for more voting slips. spoil my demure image =P all for my dear lohhhh. see i so sacrificial.. =P the people sure tink we dam er xing want to win the free guess watch loh.. haha.. but maybe we really will win leh!! =P

haha den we proceeded on our shopping trip. =) feel so deprived of shopping. so long nv really buy anything le. but due to budget constraints, must control! hahaha. we spent so much time choosing the nicest accessories from so many diff shops that we got confused and almost couldnt find the shop we initally visited again. so happy! got so many things today! happy. shopping can destresss! had a great day with auntie today!

saw this super amusing accessory. see auntie smile till so can lan..


























she ask me act fierce. xin ji zhong lohh. wan look nicer riteeeee. =P


























super retarded =P tink we disgusted the other passengers!



















































pretty auntie! *why do i look so green =(((*

living in wonderland` 01:13

got my nie electives! e voice studies n production tutor is super cute and funny! =)) the class was so fun! we were told to bring a mat for floor exercise every wk! sounds so fun!! =P and i oni got 2 exams this sem! so slack rite.. hope i can do better this sem.. =)

my baby is sick. i spread to him lohhh. sighh. he took super gd care of me the past few days, i still so mean spread to him.. nw his throat is just as bad as mine =(( which was badddd. i rather he nv tk care of me. =(( dada so busy, tiring trainings, last min competition, left so lil time to rest =(

silly darling.. i will tk care of you k.. nurse u back to health.. *thou u seem to b doing a better job than me =((* sorry last night u not well i nv pei u..

me and my cutest darling. get well soon!



























how much is too much and how little is too little? sometimes even though you're trying your best and doing the most you can, it may just not be enough. who then is the unreasonable one? neither actually, because its really just a difference in mindset.

living in wonderland` 18:32

feeling dam sick and tired. gg crazy already. just wanna screammmm!

and i feel super dumb. i realised i forgot ALL my basic maths already.

so many things kp bugging me. not that i emo v easily. its cos everything is just there. all the time. sometimes, i forget momentarily. but its still there. more and more easily. more and more often.

living in wonderland` 13:29

=) yest was supposed to go shopping but it was so sickening to carry a bag with a heavy lappie in it so went to catch the mummy 3 instead. it was not bad.. but not exactly very fantastic aso. hee i found the part where the skeletons fought the revived army qt amusing.. =)

wheee! its national day today!

=) watched money no enough 2 with my boyboy. i din reli find it fantastic. it was qt like his other movies, very real, with some v anti sg govt stuff and also very predictable. but the ending was kinda sad. and it actually made me think abit.

the ending part about being poor is really v true. a person is not the poorest when he is penniless, but when noone loves or cares anymore. money reli isnt everything. there're so many things money jus cant buy..happiness or true love.. tons of money without anyone to share them with is act reli meaningless..

and the way vivian lai sacrificed for her husband was qt touching laa, thou it was qt silly.. just feel more often than not, giving without expecting any return usually gets taken forgranted. so at least he appreciated what she did for him..

and the mama. she was so so so pitiful =( made me feel so sad. the disappointment in sudden realisation of how much a burden she was, tt dying seemed be a happy thing rather than sad.. tt all she did for them, every sacrifice and every amount of hardwork was all for nothing.

=( sad.

living in wonderland` 03:20

had my first lesson of the sem today. was superrrr boring. the lecturer was like some fly buzzing in the background. cant even hear what he's saying. heng its only 2 hrs lec for today! after lec went to eat w sebas and jojo. haha. had a short and entertaining gossip session. =) feel like superrr long nv chat lerr.

mama and daddy went to australia this morning. hmm. its actually the first time they're away. it just feel abit weird. its not a matter of being independant. just not really used to it.

just a feeling that things are changing.

living in wonderland` 19:38

feels like i never even had a holiday and its a new semester again. the second last before graduating. feeling so sian. just better buck up and study hard this semester!

happy manniversary dear. =)

i jus wanna b happy. jus needa noe u love me. tts all tt shd matter. i dont wanna lose hope so easily anymore.

living in wonderland` 21:42

just read this link zhuohao sent. v sad but also qt scary. and today's the 1st day of the 7th mth. so got a kinda eerie atmostphere alr.

was thinking of asking my mom to slp with me when i walked to her room and she started SINGING at the top of her voice. at 3am!! my dad jumped up and looked super freaked out too. at least if he not scared, make me feel more secured ma. i see he aso abit scared scared make me more freaked out. den my mom started to stir den stood up to go toilet. den she started LAUGHING. wthh! i tink she found it v amusing tt we were so freaked out. but reli v v v v v scary. can you imagine. someone who was singing in her slp wake up and start laughing.. cuckoo..

haha. im too scared to slp now.

living in wonderland` 03:10