im literally sick and tired. i need to sleep. =( argh. i have been procrastinating. and i haven even typed out the dnd minutes since the meeting so long ago! omg. and my pa report. im super irritated. i type half way that day. den either i didnt save it, or i duno wad lar. anw its GONE. =( i have to start from scratch again.

the only happy thing is i decided to do sth for fun. i hope i can finish it in time and it turns out nice! =) *cross fingers*

living in wonderland` 23:19

haii =( im so sick of PA leiiii. its kind of enriching lar. but still very monotonous. i wanna go out.. but its so tiring to keep going out after work. have been super addicted to 超级星光大道. haha. nothing much to do at home anyway.

looking forward to meeting the girls tml. finally something more worth looking forward to. yeahh! tml is friday!

i noe ur training reli very tiring. plus sometimes things just dont turn out that well. really duno how i can help. jus wan tell u not to feel demoralized. dont push urself too hard, must tk care of urself ok. you can do it de. jiayou.

living in wonderland` 20:44

i was super duper happy to see yx online jus now! super long nv talk to him and act the things he say are really very encouraging. it kind of makes me realise maybe there really is much more to sth than i act do see. i put myself in a situation tt i nv was confident of pullin through. i jus nv felt i had enuf in me.

living in wonderland` 04:10

i've never appreciated a long weekend this much before. luckily, the 1st week is finally over.

ultimately eu day. walked aimlessly ard during lunch jus to take a break from the office. i reli din noe where to go so walked over to si ma lu guan yin temple to pray. so totally random. and its gonna be like this for 9 more weeks. endure. i try to believe as long as its fun its alrite. bt i jus cant convince myself to b happy. each day jus gets worse. i reli dread it. not the working part. bt i hate being this lonely.

living in wonderland` 00:22

mixed feelings about my pa company. hate the untidyness, crammed area, enclosed feeling, and the fact that there are no computers. no internet. no msn. but after 1 day of complaining to so many people, i wanna say ... i was jus complaining.

self consolation 1:
in another light, its really quite fun to learn auditing. thou i have no idea on what auditing is really like currently, i have this feeling its gonna be fun. =) i shall take tml to explore on my own! i kinda like the challenge, it puts some motivation into working! i can do it! =)

self consolation 2:
travelling to different areas is actually quite good. although this first place is cui, i hope it will get better. it is more interesting to travel and visit many many different companies than stay in the office all day long rite? everchanging environment more exciting wor.

=) so tml's gonna be a better day! yeahhh. 没政府了！

no1 has ownership over any1. and every1 has the right to do anything. technically no1 can stop a person frm doing sth. because its a choice.

living in wonderland` 23:45

hmmm. nothing much. just felt like saying thanks to those who have been there all this while. i really really appreciate it. its a very warm feeling to know people do care. you cant imagine how much strength it have given me. =) so thanks!

smiling doesn't really imply happiness. not every smile depicts happiness. it is merely an expression. possibly an empty shell that works to assure those who care that the ability to smile is not lost. yet behind each smile, there may just be tears that others may not see or understand.

days pass, regardless of whether we are happy or sad. time continues to pass even as you feel sad. and you may just miss out on the beautiful things that may be happening rite before you. the nights maybe cruel but when you wake up the next morning, a brand new day awaits. just believe that each day will only get better, ok? =)

living in wonderland` 01:21

insomnia for the past few nights. finally, last night i was too tired. but through the nite, i kept dreaming. weird dreams and nightmares. i feel im growing weaker by the day. cant even relax in my sleep. im alr using my last bit of strength to keep things in control. or at least so they seem in control. feeling so drained.

but still, today was a good day. walked ard in town without any specific thing to do or buy. the streets were quite empty. no bustling crowds or squeezy places. everything was moving at a very comfortably slow pace. it was really very relaxing.

tml im shifting over to 42 bcos our block is renovating. phew. jiejie managed to get the 42 single room. alot of trouble saved. heng.

living in wonderland` 00:11

i still wanna say this one more time. im sorry for how things are like now and that it came so suddenly. and on my part i didnt handle our problems well enough. but at this point, just want you to take care and jiayou.

PA is starting next monday. gonna be a really routine and boring period. five days a week, eight hours a day.

living in wonderland` 20:01

千言万语，尽在不言中。

living in wonderland` 13:21

i love my cute nieces.. binbin xinxin cut their hair! now xinxin has a slight bob. dam cute!

living in wonderland` 20:18

you misunderstood me. im not scared of what pp say. reli.

living in wonderland` 00:00

drowning in anxiety and fear.

im very worried. i just want everything to be alrite. thats all that matters.

living in wonderland` 21:47

haha just for fun. the food that we ate in stnicks 2 days ago =) orange bowl, curry chicken rice, chicken rice, curry chicken noodle, shredded chicken noodle. haha. dun look v appetizing rite? but its YUMMY. and it cost on $6.50! haha. jealous not!


















=) yest went for lh's 21st at aloha loyang. me n lh went earli so we explored the area n discovered a mini indoor PLAYGROUND. SUPER excited when i saw it. haha its meant for kids lar. quite small n abit cui. but i was still dam excited. took super alt of photos thruout the day too! happy. i esp like the one i took with jac. haha. i know you will see this! my dear jacjac =P stop being so hostile to me. alwx say me. will sad de lehhh *heartbroken* haha. anw it was gd to meet up with liz jac yh agn =)






















some very unexpected pp smsed me these few days. one of it was jus a forwarded msg bt i still super happy. haha. stupid rite? lalala. but i dun care. =))))

下一步该怎么走 ... 你会牵着我吧？

living in wonderland` 00:21