救命啊！！

argh going to explode le =( throat VERY THE PAIN. and im feeling so dam sian. haha. everything is DAM SIAN. i dun feel like doing anything.

been freaking sian recently. if i expect you to talk to me and you dont, i wont talk to you. and then i complain abt that person ignoring me. haii den some pp tell me that it may be the exact same way for the other person? cos i dun talk to you so you dun talk to me. but ehh dun care la. haha i shy. so you shd talk to me first. haha.

im starting to hate school alot. im so freaking lost in all tax seminars. sadded. i wanna start on my company law and tax. i promise that from next week onwards, i will keep up with all the tutorials. so i shall tk this wkn to catch up! =) i can do it!

living in wonderland` 16:44

had a rather TAX-ing day yesterday. haha first lesson of the day was risk at 2.30. haha sounds slack rite? didnt do much, just that every group presents their finding and discuss and submit our minutes. hmm. was quite fun and i was reli looking forward to a relaxing night before the case competition. or so i thought.

me sebas and sally started doing our tax tutorial, feeling very optimistic about it. we were almost sure we would be able to finish it very quickly! howeverrrrr. haha we spent from 8.30 till 12pm doing tax. it was reli mentally TAX-ing man. haha brain juice totally sucked dry and nothing could go in at all. siann. that meant that things were getting reli unproductive.

finally, we gave up and decided that we should leave it all to lixiang, the genius of the group to handle the questions. so after tt me sebas and sally watched alone from crunchyroll. super lame lar. cos it wasnt reli that scary, but i screamed and hit sally by accident when i went super near to the screen and a scary face popped up. whaha. poor sally.

and today woke up at 10 to do our biz case. we split into 2 small groups to do each sub part and before we knew it, we finished it.. in around 4 hours. or slightly less. whaha thou we took so short time! i hope we'll at least get into the quarters la. else so paiseh. so weak. then we finished watching 双天之尊 and a part of 有福 before me lx and sebas proceeded to jp for dinner. haha was a RATHER silent dinner. i shd learn to talk more! haha kinda awkward lei i feel.

sighh i guess i mite not be seeing darling for quite sometime=( monday got tax presentation, tuesday got marketing and friday risk's proposal is due. siannn. we gotta get things done quick mans.

was talking to yx yesterday. i realised that humans are really very weird. why isit that the more you like someone, the more you try to hide it? if he like tt girl, he shd just go for it! play mind games for wad! haha so tiring. end up having to guess what each other is thinking. alamak.

living in wonderland` 21:23

this was during our gathering in december. aiyohhh. guen is dam fat! =(

its funny. how those memories never fade. how its alwx fun to be with these people. cos you just know they'll alwx be true. one of the purest kind of friendship!

no matter what happens, at the end of the day, we'll alwx be there for each other =)

living in wonderland` 02:36

sighh. monday blues.

tml i have presentation and i just finished doing the presentation slides.

im so angry. i was panicking today after lesson cos of the presentation. and sumone scolded me crazy. grrrr.

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living in wonderland` 21:19

been quite moody these two days. haha. pms-ing. kinda lost my temper yesterday. it was a bad day la.

earli in the morning was talking to someone whom i ask to buy flowers. den he said "i hope you da the $100 urself" i was like super angry. as if i reli so nidd his help. if he dun buy i sure can still sell de loh. u wan buy i aso dun sell liao. yes i am very very xiao qi.

den went out w lh to jp cos she quite moody aso. den i wanted go out walk abt cos aso dam sian. den ended up coming bak to hall with SIX LONG JOHN SILVER MEALS. haha. my hand almost broke leh. u tink, 1 cup of drink is 500ml, so 6 cups is... 3 litres.. which is 3kg.. so i hold 3 kg on one hand for half hour.. nvm.. the meal got 6 boxes. still nevermind.. how i tap my ez link on the bus! aiyoo if i can i sure tk taxi. but got surcharge loh. den i held 6 boxes of food and 6 cups of drinks in 1 hand and used the other to tap my card... -.-

i reli am not piss at sy or sally for asking me dabao la. cos i offered one. is jus that 6 packets was abit over. ok not abit. quite over.

den next up.. to add on to the sian-ness of the day, i rec'd a mail from concert engineers where the girl fully capslock my name and rudely told everyone me and afew others nv submit our timetables. well. i tot it was very super duper obvious im going to quit? dunnid so gu yi one ma. duhz. den i submitted loh, the incomplete unconfirmed messy one. if she wan den give her loh. big deal.

then, next i got my idiotic da yi ma. like.. of all days.. den i summore indulged in a double scoop icecream and milk tea at jp. this is called 自作自受。end up super bad cramps thruout the whole nite all the way until today.

in a nutshell, i've been and am still in a kinda cranky mood today. sighh. dun feel like talking at all. grrrr. dun come and make me angry.

esp that someone. if you dun wanna believe what i say, if you're jus looking for self-confirming evidence, if you only wanna hear what u wan to hear and block all the truth, all the facts, too bad for u. seriously! cos i reli am not in the right mind to rethink all these things.

save me. im stressed.

living in wonderland` 20:58

=) schools started. im not exactly enjoying it. but its alrite la. my coy law and marketing teachers are very fun loving and entertaining during their tutorials so its reli fun. risk mgm is ok la. his name is super cute. he's called el'fred BOO. reli =D dam cute. den when u call him.. "prof booo" hahaha. anw tax is horror man. so boring. haha the tutor talk no change in tone one.. one tone thruout. almost gg to slp! but im determined to pull my GPA up this sem. i have to! so i will start doing tutorials from today!

something happened to someone. maybe both sides were confused. or probably she was very gullible. sometimes i seriously feel , words dont mean a shit, if the person doesnt mean it. he can put it so nicely, explain his reasons so well, make it seem like he's reluctant to make the decision, say he is in a dilemma too, claim the girls's too good for him, she remind him of someone else, but in the end, what reli matters is if he cares. yet from what he said, you cant detect care. all u detect is his guilt in rushing into a r/s and his excuses for wanting to take a break.

that guy is dam bastard la. thou she still believes he may want her to wait and all that. but sighh. i tink he's a bastard for hurting her. anw its reli thru these incidents tt u remind urself how some people are just that er xin. and you cant control what they do. so u just have to put on an armour to protect urself. just in case.

i realised that i reli changed quite alot since i've been with darling. =) something he pointed out to me, i learnt to laugh at myself even when im in the most embarrassing situation. things are more fun this way rite. cos you can embarrass me and test my limit riteeeeee!

haii. back to work now. byeee =D

living in wonderland` 12:07

=) its a new year again. i reli hope everything will be smooth and well this coming year. may everyone tt matters be healthy, safe and happy.

had a very fun time with darling these few days. haha. enjoying every min and that makes it even more sian when he's working now. sighh no time to meet on wk days for long long time animore. no more shopping kbox or anithing le. =) but i guess its good. he has been doing nth much for quite some time le. at least he feels more occupied de. 老师早！hee mr tan! jiayous! dun let those little kids beat u down! =D

xmas was spent in the coach w darling cos he came w us to our trip to msia. some little parts where there was abit of unhappiness but i reli enjoyed it alot. =) i cant upload pics cos i lost the camera cable. but wells. i will try soon! it was quite a different experience. but i have to say, msia reli reli reli ermm.. su*ks. haha. i hate the pp there. so no system. so barbaric. haha oh mans. nono dun sue me or bar me from msia. its a personal comment. LOL. ate very nice food and put on alot of weight. UNTIL NOW! i cant seem to lose those additionally gained fats!

also got back our results for the 1st sem of year 2. sighh. i cant say i expected good grades. but at least i noe i did quite badly this sem. no a's. and well. i duno some pp tink its alr v good to get B's but in nbs.. sighh. its reli not that good de. =( i better buck up. sth went wrong w my studying this exam period! i have to catch up next sem! my gpa is currently super stupid. its 3.988. hai. just give me a 4. haha. i will jiayou next sem. i hope. =P

recently had some bball trainings. im reli loving it more and more. =) i wanna learn and be zai some day! i can do it! =D lets pray hard we win tml's match and get into SEMIFINALS!! =)

there are some erxin pp that i cant stand yet have to pretend to be super friendly with. i wish i din have to. cos they are reli not worth it. sighh. but what to do. the world is just this fake aint it?

living in wonderland` 23:38