=) its been a good week. stayed in school to study most of the wk. except for tues went home to eat mooncake and project on wed. it wasnt reli v productive la. but i still had a good week. cos i suddenly realised how im reli v lucky!

quite alot of things happened this wk la. on mon nite i came home and i was rubbing my eyes den i realised the white eyeball part was swollen.. quite bad.. so was quite freaked out so mama brot me to mt avernia to see the 24 hr clinic. den realised its allergy to my contacts. the doctor told me i gotta refrain from contacts for a wk. den i was like. SIAN. but heng 1 wk. anw holidays nvm. den the nxt day went to see specialist and he told me "you want to be pretty and blind or wear ur specs?" omg. obviously wear specs la. den he told me i allergic to contacts. so i cant wear it animore. unless i wanna tk the risk of a virus infection tt may lead to blindness etc etc. but its reli quite hard to get used to. afterall i started with contacts in pri 3 leh. after like 10 yrs u tell me i cant wear it?!?! #(*#&@*^(#!&. hahaha. but wells. no choice.

conclusion: guen cannot wear contacts animore. =(

hmm. and so, because of this issue, i realised, that im gonna put in ALOT of effort in maintaining my complexion, grow more hair, lose weight, =P cos i dunwan to have a very very cui look all the time. haha. okie. anw. yest nite was billy l's wedding.

hmm. reli v happi to meet so many old colleagues AGAIN. grace's wedding oni got 2 + tables of DP pp. but billy's wedding was like.. 6 tables? or more of those office staff. den seeing every1 again, thou nv talk much but its reli v wen xin. =) im toucheddd that billy l still so nice to me. haha. i SERIOUSLY tot he will forget all the small ants. haha. anw. quite alot of pp say that i grow thinner frm dp that time... shuang daoooooooo =P whahaha. ok. but still fatter than when i first join uni lar. i noe. but stilll =D happi. i duno hw to express the feeling of familiarity when u see pp u used to b so close to. it was reli a great nite. nice food, good atmosphere, great company. =)

den today. darling pei me go make specs. haha. thou i wasnt reli v satisfied with anione of the frames, i mian qiang chose 1 loh. hmm better than the one im using lar. den knowing tt i was in a RELI grumpy mood =) darling pei me shop the whole day. den after a whole day of shopping therapy, im reli in a much better mood =D 我的战利品：

new specs
pair of white shoes
2 tshirts
1 spag top
1 white skirt
1 skinny jeans =))))
a new bagg (from msia with love)

=) im a happy girl. i need to stop tinking so much. cos when i look ard, the best is already all ard me.

living in wonderland` 22:02

=) generally had quite a good wkn.

sat was daddy's bday. we went to vienna to have international buffet. its good =) i like it. haha. the tepanyaki is reli reli reli yummmy! hmmm. den eat until so super full until my tummy was like WOAH! =P

den sunday woke in afternoon and rushed to get ready to go ahma's new house b4 gg meet the dnd main commm. hmm ahma's new house is nice! i like. very spacious. very clean n classy feeling. i tink its the colour scheme. next time i wan my house to have a white colour scheme. (pink is fine too! =P) anw after tt siang drove us to heeren to meet the rest. we went to NUM to choose our haviannas. =) i chose one blue purple one. hee. me sally sy and ching act like the same pattern but end up oni got size for me n ching =P heee. its nice to get free slippers for nth! =P

following that, we went to duno wad hotel to eat buffet AGAIN. =) but this time was diff la. the buffet food not say very nice la. but the dessert rocks. hahah. the durian paste....... WOAHHH. and the ar bo leng, cakes, fondue. woahhhhh =) haha. okiee. ya.. i love desserts so yeah wa! =) happyyy! and we took many many photos!























following that we went k at lucky chinatown point. haha. quite some pp went but we split into 2 rooms cos the room too small. den the 9 of us in one room. so fun! =P so long we nv had a gathering lidat liao le. and aso we took so many photos! so funn! =P hahaha. reli enjoyed the nite. jus that too bad i had a splitting headache the whole night. aso duno y. den became so mood swing-y.. haha. =) andddd our hall KING and QUEEN treated us.. finally.. after 1 year... haha. but yea i reli enjoyed alot! =P shall get the photos from ching eldine they all n post some up! and also, theres this reli reli nice song called 爱情转弯的地方。=) i jus realised its sung by pin guan. no wonder all along so familiar. =D hmm but anw i reli reli reli enjoyed the dinner plus kbox la. it was reli like back to those days we had so much fun tgt. this is the group of people that make my hall life the most fulfilling. =) without them. i tink hall life would be very boring. haha.

meanwhile its time to go study! =)

living in wonderland` 23:51

its the start of the term break. =) im praying hard that i will be super duper effiicient this holidays! i can do it! i realised effectively i have qt lil to study. out of 6 modules, 2 non-examinables and an elective. so i tink theres enuf time! i must catch up by hook or by crook. i better. haha. i have......... 1 week! i jus have to catch up in 3 modules, complete the dnd post event stuff and im safeeeee =P

but for now, its resting time. tml is daddy's birthday! and sunday theres dnd main com treat. wkn's burnt. but i guess its worth relaxing b4 a week of mugging. darling is going on a cruise nxt wk. =) hope theres nice things to shop there! have funnN!

maybe. just maybe.

had this stream of thoughts just now. some things seem like they're just meant to be that ways. yet is there a possibility that things would not have been the way they are? the possibility of something ever occurring above the realistic fact that it probably would never occur? hmmm. this "maybe" in life is so broad. in almost every aspect of life. and partly it exists cos its a kind of responsibility that i try to shrink.

if i chose engineering over accountancy in university, everyone would have been mildly skeptical about it. and on my part, i didnt believe i had it in me to excel in my choice above all the discouragments. so i settled for accountancy. at least in that case, if i dont do well, it was not totally stubbornly my choice. theres no room for blaming myself for a wrong choice that i made and regret for a long long time.

yet i wonder. would it be different. how would things be? maybe school would not be this boring and monotonous. maybe i would enjoy tutorials more. just for the sole fact tt numbers interst me 100 times more than words. maybe i would be able to do something i RELI enjoy in future? instead of boring auditing or something along that line?

living in wonderland` 21:41

omg. im freaking dam pissed with myself and everything. im dam pissed off with myself. i reli cannot be this cui animore. i reli reli reli reli duno what to do animore. sighh.

got a freaking 3.5-4 upon 6 for 214. its like DAM CUI. sighhh. and the worst part is that this subject is non examinable. i reli cant afford to continue lidat. i reli reli need to buck up for the written assignment on this thurs. but i RELI got no time. sighh.

den just when i tot it was bad enuf. den i got my freakin IT pop quiz back. wow. 35 upon 100. the mean of the class is 70+. good job guen. i bet im the lowest in the entire class loh. luckily this is oni 3% - 6%. but still. goodness. what more can go wrong.

to add to the shit, tml got forensic science quiz and im so dead. im like at lecture 2 of 6. haha. i dun see how im ever gonna memorise all the information by tml.

i reli hte this. sum1 jus kill me. im reli so dead. i need 48 hours a day. shit shit shit. sighh =( helppp.

living in wonderland` 14:43

living in wonderland` 15:49

=) had nite cycling on fri nite till sat morning.. hmm it was quite fun la. hmm maybe there reli was too many stoppings in btw and cycling on the pavements were reli v torturing. but on the whole it was fun la! =D im quite glad i survived the entire thing and i didnt fall! chatted with quite a few people that night =) generally it was reli very very enjoyable. despite the extreme butt ache =P

after reaching bak hall at ard 11 settled down n took a short nap b4 meeting darling. went this indonesia thai eatery at north point! =D got v v v v nice icecream there. jus that the banana topping was kinda pathetic la. two TINY slices with a big serving of icecream. so giam one.. haha. then despite being FREAKING tired, i still had the energy to walk ard and shop awhile =P whaha. to darling's dismayal. no la. but i bot a top that i like! =P and a pair of shoes. haha. cos it was on offer? looks kinda kiddy thou. i have to admit. but nvm! i like can liao. haha.

after tt rushed home to get ready for grace's wedding. and reached late at 830 but the wedding haven started. heng i nv go earli. it was nice to see the old dp pp again. just that i better make it a pt to go over say hi to steven grace they all nxt time. sighh. i feel super no manners whenever i jus sit there n mind my own business. all these pp took so good care of me last time. yet i alwx so da pai wait for them to come talk to me. BUT HOR its kinda awkward. a small teeny weeny ex-fry shdnt even be there btw all the managers and bosses =( topics run dry and theres a HUGE generation gap leh. =( no common topic. but haha. ok. my fault. i should have tried. haha. no effort put in on my part =P


最近觉得自己真的好幸福。真的真的没什么好再奢求的。因为美好的人事物已经停留在我身边了。再不去珍惜，我就会是世界上最笨的人了！

living in wonderland` 00:44

=( stressed. feeling super stressed. i cant catch up with my work man. sighh. so many things to do. so little time. sighhh.

living in wonderland` 00:08

人质 by 张惠妹. i've been reli addicted to this song. its reli reli reli very nice.

=) 有时候不要总是转牛角尖。im glad its all settled. heee. someone should reli drill some sense into my brain.

=D im very happy tt billy l invited me to his wedding. haha. tot he forgot abt this small ant alr. it was a v short time, but recalling how he used to tk care of me when the idiotic xw was so freaking bitchy!! =D the bestest boss.

anw. today had IT presentation. that was alrite. but before that, i screwed up my IT POP QUIZ. open book. sickening lar! the book so heavy which idiot in the right mind would bring it to class everywk lar! (althou some idiots reli brot it along) plus lazy me didnt even bring my lecture notes. so yes very smart. i handed in a piece of paper with 5 empty boxes supposedly representing my unique system flowchart. sighh. im so dead.

i RELI must buck up. i RELI must start studying. STUDY STUDY STUDY. haii. please. someone, everyone. force me to study. =( andddd. stop skipping lessons aso! =( siannn. each sem is getting worse than the previous!

living in wonderland` 21:23

only i can understand why i do so stupid things. haha. it may jus seem like a joke to everyone else. oh wells.

anww. ab214 presentation was over this morning. after TWO LONG NIGHTS of preparation. i still stupidly forgot what i was supposed to say. but im glad i only paused for a slight moment. didnt reli seem like i missed out alot. but it was fun to walk around in our POWER SUIT! me lixiang jocelyn sebas n minting were having so much fun! wear till so pro den act until like a group of siao people!

=( tml there is aa201 quiz. im SO CONFIDENT. that im gonna fail. im serious. im so desperate tt i tink i'll go get an MC tml. its like worth 20%. goodness. so shitty. if i cui this quiz, i will have to put in the world's effort to even get a "B" in the final exam!

and whats more. i just received an email frm the sickening tutor of ac213 to say our grp presentation is next week. SHIT LOH. i reli dun have the time! this fri is the hall bash. i duno if im going. but i guess so. so many people are going. sighhh. i reli hate to have my days so packed.

i haven had enuf of sleep! i need to sleep. but for now. its time to studyyy =(

living in wonderland` 15:15

im reli so confused. sighh. so many things to think about. i reli duno. i duno what to do. what to think. what to say. i need to seek professional advice.

sumtimes only when you take a step back and look at yourself, can you see a totally different perspective of things.

living in wonderland` 22:08