sometimes i jus wonder if my benchmark of judging people is accurate enough. am i biased when i judge? maybe i just like to believe what i think. maybe i just choose to block off the bad points and be optimistic abt the good stuff. but i hope this girl does well. =)

ahhh! i realised i very 没有用。watch 1 show like one actor, watch another show like another actor. alamak. i must not be so easily wavered! but i tink i still like zaizai the best. vic zhou rocks! (RITE MR DARYL? =P)

living in wonderland` 10:18

im SO PROUD of myself! cos i got an A- for my study of human language puzzle. guen officially a semi-expert on human language! wheeeee! and i recalculated the GPA which now stands at 4.23! my stupid and all memory work elective actually pulled the gpa up by 0.03!! haha. tiny amt but im so elated!!!!! =D

living in wonderland` 21:14

thou they probably wun see it, still, i wanna thank these people...

the super siao-on seniors: jac, liz, yihui, mel, lyana, debbie and myself =P

the very very enthu juniors: dreana, kahyan, xinyi, natalie, jolene, and XXX (i cant rmb the last girl's name =P), cai yi, caroline etc.....

big big success! its reli reli reli very heartwarming to see that all the feedback forms were so super positive. i mean people can say that please la. they are jus trying to be nice. but reli lehh. the feedbak is not like.. 6 or 7 upon 10.. its like.. almost all 10 upon 10! =D reli make me feel like the efforts reli paid off. simple statements like "i feel very motivated to improve my skills" or "i want to do my best to prove that the pa section is capable" or "the talk reli inspired me" is reli reli reli very very.... i duno.. read it and felt so relieved and glad. reminds me of how heartwarming it felt when the entire cca voted me pres unanimously in s3 eoy. was at a loss for words. nothing could describe that feeling. and its that kinda faith the juniors have in us that reli drives us to do our best =)

tml is the last time we're going bak for morning assembly liao. hope there'll be time for a photo =) plus one last thing. not only did we manage to help the juniors a great deal, i reli feel like i made some reli good frens. these are the frens that you dont reli know well but somehow, there's jus this connections. just one wk is enuf. like some foc or sth. one wk tgt and there's this weird bond tt exists liao. makes the few of us more committed to ava! =D

our introduction of ourselves followed by a sabo-ed talk by me followed by pizzaaa. =) den it was a talk with the sec 3s. it was reli good. den a talk with the sec 2s and followed by s1s. act overall, those who were good were reli very positive and willing to learn. OF COS. there are the black sheeps also larr. got one girl. i almost slapped her face. when i was talking to the group she jus rolled her eyes at me blatently. den when liz ask her for feedback she jus stand up and walked out. omg. reli feel like slapping her.

another interesting thing is a girl called clara. she only has one hand, her other hand only ends at her elbow. i din reli notice it initally la. only till liz pointed it out. i guess her super chao ji freaking bad attitude is due to inferior complex ba. i hope tt she is less defensive and all that ba. the cca wanted to kick her out. but i reli duno. isit reli a good choice. if u say kick out any other girl with a bad attitude, i would agree immediately and encourage it. but for this girl, i reli tink it'll further worsen her condition. im sure she would not feel good about it. and im sure she already has a very deflated confidence. should we actually worsen it by kicking her out? i reli duno. but if we dont, she is jus gonna be a 害群之马. hai. this is crucial. cos though it only means a small thing to the cca, it may affect this girl's life. are we able to be responsible for this decision that would seriously affect her life a great deal? what if she feels ostrasized cos of her handicap? i reli duno. thought provoking.

i wonder. should we reli organise the camp mrs sng wants? hmmmmmmm.

living in wonderland` 19:08

it has been a very very very very exciting week so far. havent felt this enriched since then. the snav pp decided to go bak to try to revamp the cca upon mrs sng n auntie sc's request. so we started our shadowing since monday! okie. i noe this will get abit boring. but i wanna rmb it.. so that next time when i read i can rmb these stuff. hmm. later got dnd meeting. den tml morning meeting dada first den mayb 11 plus going bak sn for assembly and after tt our mini gathering. den friday going bak sn and having dinner cum gathering again! =D yay. den sat im finally gonna spend more time w darling. lets go shopping! else GSS going finish liao. its been a very very tiring and packed week. i abit cant take it liao. but it just feels so good. reli.

PLUS! yest i quarrelled with this auntie. so shuang! =D get to scold pp for funnn. and she 欠骂。not that i was being rudeeee. haha. its so nice to be able to scold pp jus lidat without anyone restaining you. jus feels so freee! hahaha.

SnAv
its been ages since i woke up at like 5.45 am!! and its been 3 days in a row liao! and same for fri and sat!! on monday jac dropped by to fetch me at ard 6.50 so we can reach school b4 the juniors. cos we wanted to see what time they arrive, how they handle things and how the seniors "lead" and stuff. its a SUPER long story but the conclusion is, it was very very disappointing. the standard we expected was already the bare bare minimum yet it was RELI unacceptable. being super demoralised, we spent the rest of the day "interviewing" our old teachers on how they tot ava's std has been. conclusion: bad. we went to talk to mrs sng and she was SUPER defensive. she refused to admit the teachers were too lazy and "by the book". me and liz were super pissed but too bad.

so today we had a meeting with the s3s. after the short talk w the 5 more responsible sec 3s. the 3 of us were like so super relieved! ava 有救了！haha. cos their attitude was reli good, in the sense they felt that they were underused, not given duties, not taught skills and all that. at least they have the motivation and passion to learn. then in tt case, jac the pro can teach the skills while me and liz can teach them how to handle the cca. we were reli so happi. cos after the mere half an hour talk, could see the determination in them to pull the cca back up. even though i duno them totally, they listened so intently on everything we told them, and even told us that they feel that the teachers are not giving them authority and all. they told us all their problems and YES tml we will attempt to solve them! wish me luck!! =D

for the first time in reli many many yrs, i feel so super committed and determined to pull my ava back up again. and this is probably the 2nd time the ava students are uniting against our teacher ic, since mr mohan. i hoep this will bond the people and let them work hard towards a common goal. the cca was up to that standard before and it will be soon. i reli hope it will. we shall all jiayou!!!





















very random photos. jac repairing the specs aircon, me infront of the abundant mirrors and liz taking a break!


SN visit
this is the first time in very long tt i visited sn again. finally get to eat all the food again! the orange bowl, blue bowl, fried rice, uncle mobin's iced milo iced tea. omg. no wonder i put on weight! and i saw so many cute things. the primary 1 students walking in two, holding hands and putting a finger on their lips as they walk in between classes. then the kids playing catching during their 1 HOUR recess time. so cute. how they try their best to run so fast yet they are reli so slow. haha. den how two kids were struggling to open their chips and finally persuaded each other to pluck courage to get me to open the chips for them. i heard their conversation so cute!

girl A: "ask the jiejie open for us la"
girl B: "you ask la.. i scared.."
girl A: "wei. is u want to eat one.. i dun friend you already"
girl B: "ok la. i ask. but u come with me"

girl B pulled girl A to me and having overheard their conversation i offered b4 they even asked. cos i noe they too scared to ask. den when i opened it and returned to them,

girl B: "u cannot eat cos u dun dare to ask"
girl A: "you also never ask ma. please.."

den they happily sat at one side to eat their chips. reli v v adorable. primary 1 oni. den so innocent, so timid yet act brave. =) and to think i was once lidat.

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living in wonderland` 21:35

=) i've decided! im gonna chop off my hair tml! haha. kinda sad. long time since my hair was this long. hmm i hope the hairdresser does a good job. i dunwan to look like a mushroom or anithing near that. haha. used to tink that i can TRY to keep long hair cos of some reasons. but wells. apparently doesnt seem to matter. end up so dry so little =(((( so....

byebye to my longer hair! =( i wonder when was the last time i saw a self-confident me? i reli cant rmb. i duno what happened to me. but its all going wrong. im fat. dropping hair. getting pimples. reli duno what to do. what happened. suddenly feel so freaking cui until everything i wear, or use just makes it more obvious. what should i do?

living in wonderland` 22:11

sometimes. its not that i dun like to share my things. its jus that i hate to give people free access to my stuff. in the sense once u use it once with my permission, every subsequent time, you jus go ahead without asking. if thats the case, i'd rather not even lend it for the 1st time. sighh. dont jump straight to the conclusion that im selfish. for example, i just reli dun like people accessing computer with my password. wadever the purpose is. well. the password is there for a reason.

living in wonderland` 18:57

yest went kbox w yijin jiejie siang qq. haha was quite fun =P i realise this is the 1st time we reli meet to go out tgt. haha. hope got more such outings next time! im gonna die of boredom at home. even the games in the psp is starting to get a teeeeeny weeeeny bit boring. so i better find sth else to do.

i hope i get the day care centre job! =D will b fun i tink!

living in wonderland` 09:54

=D i wan a car. which kind soul will buy a car for me??

haha. jus had the car to drive for half a day and it felt so good!! haha. until now im so hoping i gt a car to drive all the time. haha. and i finally regained the confidence of driving like when i was learning. used to be reli scared until the last part b4 tp. when my instructor told me "you cant be so timid. sure fail" den i was more "reckless" but after pass exam, haha i was SUPER careful again. today felt goood!

act im kind loving my life now. (which is no life.) staying at home with dada. else playing the psp he loaned me, reading, and the best part is, im starting to feel that a computer is no longer so essential to me =D i can live without it!! im withdrawing into my cave to hibernate le. haha. aniwae no1 to go out with aso =( everyone went overseas. china, taiwan, hongkong, thailand, malaysia, japan. sighh. everyone is going for holidays! only meee.

living in wonderland` 21:21

argh. having those mood swings agn. but its swinging to the happy side. haha. so i welcome it. hmm. i've been slacking around for the past two days. doing nth much aso la. went to visit the new dnd venue again this morning. i love it =D yay. its gonna be so classy! i simply love it! haha.

im watching 爱杀17 now. haha. its kinda dumb la. the story is built on the point of lies and more lies. the scariest and eeriest people with the darkest secrets and mysteries. kinda unrealistic. but still. im interested to noe the ending. and IM BORED.

sometimes when you take a step back and look around, there are actually many people who care. =) forty years old. omg. so old! =P

living in wonderland` 20:58

aiyo! i cant stand myself. im freaking bored of studying. i tink since the start of this blog. today is the most time i spend here. aso nth to write liao. jus nw watched campus superstar. den rmb last wk gt 1 gal sang a song called 本来。super nice =)


本来不觉得你特别疼我
直到你不再疼爱我以后
已经过去 雨伞和雨衣
不会再庇护我

本来不觉得你特别疼我
直到你不再疼我以后
来不及了手写的留言对象
已经不会是我

走在湿漉漉红砖道上
沿着导盲砖试着假装
的确有点困难

也许我就这样走路回家
反正你不再在乎几点
该几点回到家

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dont act like you noe me so well. cos you dont. im not just who you c. its not jus THAT superficial.

and i cant stand pp who r so competitive. so wat if i got 30+ for quiz 2? 100% chop will get A+ huh. you NOE i haven studied much yet. i barely started. dunnid to test water EVERY FREAKING DAY. dun kp testing hw much i noe. what gd will it if u study everything tt i noe? jus so you are comparable to me? thank you for tinking im so smart. but i cant guarantee an A+ loh. dont compare with me. compare with yourself. compare with the qns that are gonna come out. cant you jus do it ur way, and let me do it my way. try asking me ONE MORE TIME. dun blame me if i give u all the wrong ans. cos i alr said i HAVEN study yet.

give me a break!

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