simplicity`

25 April 2007

i was talking to et on the phone yest. walking w the 41 pp to can 2 to eat. feeling f*cking extra. den when i crossed the road, eldine shouted, "walao guen.. car!" actually i saw. i duno what i was doing aso. i told et, "i wish that car sped abit more. if only it banged me down"

BANG!

i'd b able to escape from all these. im tired. reli tired. tired of studying. tired of everything. i need a break. i wanna go away to sumwhere far far away. get away from this shit life. be not myself for awhile. i reli reli reli need some peace. i cant take it. those people who are irritating me day in day out. go away!! shoo. just leave me ALONE.

there's sth terribly wrong with me. yesterday studying half way in study room, i pretend to slp, lay face down and cried. i guess it was kinda obvious. at least noone asked me abt anithing. i dun reli wanna talk abt anithing aniwae. its jus too much to take. sumtimes even the strongest person will brk down. and guen IS weak.

jap exam ltr. i haven even gone thru the vocab the 2nd time. and im blogging. no sense of urgency. im too tired. fail? den U loh. retake loh. dun care animore. k fine. just give me a C =P

stats is on friday. guess what. i have tut 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12 to do. and not to mention 10, 11, 12 never even SEE the notes b4. im so gonna die. even if its open book. im nt even gonna know where to flip. basically tonite n tml nite, gonna be sleepless nites.

i realised that my clothse are reli arhh.. walao. bth. all same pattern. no fun one. i wanna go buy more clothes. i wan a more interesting waredrobe so i can match my everyday mooodd. wheres the money gonna come frm? ha. dun ask me. i duno. im broke.

after exams is time to enjoy. i wanna:
. kbox kbox and kbox
. shop - i wan a NEW waredrobe

. ice skating
. movie marathon

. mum mum

. exercise - swim cycle jog (me and auntie's overdue date!)

. meet up with peopleee

. clear ouxiangju debt

. sleep sleep and MORE sleep

post exam 见不得人 state. i need to:

. lose 4 kg n the tummy

. rid my eye bags, eye rings, pimples........

. do something fun to my hair

and i wanna learn some things too.

. singing

. pilate

. kickboxing

. dancing

aniwae. faster. friday comecomecome!

living in wonderland` 15:17

22 April 2007

heard this reli fantastic song =) haha. from ching's blog. tot i wanna post it here too!

living in wonderland` 18:30

14 April 2007

.:: 简单真的是种幸福
simplicity is such a blessing ::.

=( nothing don the entire day today yet. IM SO FREAKING UNPRODUCTIVE! hai im gonna start after this. i wanna complete 3 chapters today. by hook or by crook. even if it means no sleeping. i have no idea what in my brain mann. its like. sunday monday tuesday den WEDNESDAY le. and im not studying hard. whats wrong man. this is the 1st time im not freaking out for exams. sighh. better dun ask me how i did for this sem after the exams results are out k. dun make me depressed. =(( haiii. i got like.. lectures 6-12 im not done yet. at least im half ba. i hope. im OK! its ok. i can do it if i start now. yes go shoo guen.

living in wonderland` 20:02

10 April 2007

.:: dont wait till its too latedont wait till you regretfor having never been able to sayi love you ::.

firstly, most importantly, my darling! i love you!! love you love you!! =)

actually feeling quite down. today listened to qt alot of sad songs. den i started remembering the incident in sec 4. the scary one. and ah liew's husband. den many other v v depressing memories started to rush in. suddenly the mood jus became so down down down. den was kinda enjoying this sadness. i duno hw to put it, but its actually good to think about such things occasionally. cos it reminds us of who we reli treasure so much. the most most impt: mama daddy jiejie darling =) and my family n friends. sigh. the future holds so much uncertainties. so much that it scares me. i dunwan to regret anithing in the future.

arghh. these thoughts jus wont go away! =( the sad thoughts have to make way for the OB concepts i intend to cramp in! haha. kk. gg bak to the books =P

living in wonderland` 02:20

09 April 2007

curiousity kills the cat! i noe i noe i noe. but what if curiousity just wont go away?

=) im bored. bored bored. sighh. thinking alot again =(. why why why. so many whys to ask. noone to answer them! grrrr. i want the answers.

living in wonderland` 02:51

08 April 2007

recently i've been very addicted to this song: 第九夜. its quite an old song le. but wow. its dam nice =)

在这第九夜没有你的我终于开始感到寂寞
过去这期间我的无所谓全都是谎言

过了第九夜我想用一切回到十天前的世界
想念那窗外却已天黑天黑

hee. the lyrics is super nice. hmm. anw now is exam period! =( again. i've been trying my best to mug to the fullest. but the mood is missing. the motivation. the fear is not there. omg. i SHOULD have the sense of urgency le loh. sigh. the stress level is there. but its not enuf to force me to study. there are just too many other things to worry about. sigh.

i cant wait for the exams to be over. then can reli relax. spend some quality time with darling. its been weird. i feel that something's missing. mayb its just me. i've been to busy for him. until he slowly accustomed to not having me around le. i reli must and should 检讨 le.

after the exams! i wan to.... kbox! shop! sleep! watch my long list of 偶像剧s! i wan to go out! but i tink im taking special sem. sighh. =( still can stay away from studying.

next yr im moving to next door of waiching. im worried. as in. sigh. i duno how to put it. but im happy. at least we're gonna b neighbours!

=) meanwhile. GUEN! buck up lar. tml is my jap listening. haha gg to study!!

living in wonderland` 16:22